Sentimental Sunday

Two more angels gone to heaven before there family could get to them. I have such a hard time wrapping my head around these things. I understand that God's will is just that and that sometimes we can't understand why he does what he does. But it is sad that ANY child should die alone. What makes this harder to understand is both these children found their forever family but in the end weren't able to wait for their mommy and daddy to get to them.

The next two pictures are Marlena. She was 7 months old when she passed away. The day her parents dossier was submitted and what should have been one of the happiest days, they were instead informed that she passed away 2 days before.

 

The next picture was a 3 year old little boy named Nikita. Nikita was listed as a boy doing well with at that time no other complications that would prevent him from being active. However, little Nikita was at an orphanage that likes to sedate children so he remained bedridden. He found a forever family wanting him and another boy. Last week they were told the other boy had gotten leukemia and the family was working so hard to get together their funds etc to bring both boys to the states to get the best medical attention. Well apparently they had mixed up the boys and it was Nikita diagnosed with leukemia and had gone into a coma and passed away. Purely speculation but I wonder had he not been sedated for his life would he have lived?

Senseless deaths... no there is no guarantee they would not have passed away from their diagnosis. The senseless is they died alone. I seriously do not get it. I get so sad over hearing these stories but I get so angry too. Why does it cost so much for us to save these children that were turned aside by their own countries? Why is it so hard to get people to understand WHY I am fighting so hard for Joshua? Some people need to open their eyes and stop living in denial. These children have value. These children did nothing to deserve this. My little boy waiting deserves his story told. Be a voice for these children. 

It is so easy to be one of those people who sit there and say the stories are too painful to read and it makes me to sad to read her blog. Or it always ends up about the cost of adoption. Try living it.. change only happens when people see the need for change. Countries need to learn the value of ALL children. I look at Jacob every day and can't imagine my life without him in it. I stare at Joshua's picture and can't wait for him to be physically with me. He is always in my heart. 

I just don't get it- one day I know that God will reveal the answers for me but until then I will fight tooth and nail to bring awareness to this issue and to bring Joshua into our family where he belongs! My faith may be shaken but it is not gone.