RIP Landon

Today we lost another sweet boy from Reece's Rainbow. Little Landon has gone to be with God and forever wrapped in his embrace. This is the only way that I get comfort in any of these children passing away. It is knowing that he will not have to spend another day alone waiting for a family in an orphanage. He makes loss number 5 this year and we are only in the month of March. RIP angel boy...you are no longer a little boy lost.

It makes me wonder sometimes why? He was listed as a healthy boy with no heart conditions... I guess after my post about Carrington I really shouldn't be surprised. But on a more positive note.. little Carrington has her own little blog. This blog will allow everyone to keep updated on her current condition. I am in awe of her momma right now. Carrington was not the only little girl adopted from this family. They adopted another little angel too. I can't imagine how torn this momma must be having to divide her time between 2 new little girls with one of them being in such dire medical condition. You can click on the button below to bookmark and keep up on little Miss Carrington :)

As I am sure you have seen our fundraising has been non existent for a week or so. We want to thank everyone who has donated and we hope to have something in place to raise some money in the next week. Joshua turns 1 next week. Ok so that brings some tears to my eyes. My baby will be turning the big ONE without us :(  I know that this will be the one and only birthday he will be away from us.. at least if I have any say over the matter. We will buy him a present, wrap it lovingly and wait for him to come home and open it.

I often go to bed and try to envision meeting him for the first time. Picturing in my mind all the things we share as a family and envisioning him in that picture. The picture is so clear for me. There are often parts of my day that I miss him even though I have never yet had him here. Does that make sense? Someone had asked me if I had chosen another child in case Joshua's country changes their adoption program. I was a little offended to be honest.. choose another?? Right now I can't even fathom that Joshua is not meant to be mine. He is and I just have to hope that God intends him to be mine. Honestly I do not believe I chose Joshua.. God chose him for me and I have to keep the faith and follow this path he has me on. It has been a pretty bumpy path but I can't wait to get to our destination and finally have Joshua in my arms!! One of our last bumps should be cleared within the week with our homestudy getting completed.. We still have our government to go through but I'll just take one bump at a time. Wish us luck that our social worker follows through on getting it finished quickly for us!!