Writer's block?

No caseworker as of yet. It has been suggested that I ask my pediatrician to write a letter stating that Joshua would be better coming home sooner rather than later and asking for expediting. This letter is proving hard for me to write. As of yet, we know of no specific medical condition that is urgent. Down syndrome in and of itself is not enough. There has to be a medical necessity. There is limited medical information for us to know for sure.

We know that medical care and records are not well kept. We know that in many instances there is misdiagnosis or just plain missed conditions. We know that approximately 50% of children with Ds will have some sort of heart condition that could require surgery. Does Joshua have one? No indication as of yet. However, without being seen by a cardiologist we do not know for sure. So there are a lot of unknowns.. unknowns does not equate to a necessity for our government. So I sat.. trying to type out a letter for my doctor to sign that sounds not like a passionate mom wanting her son but as a rational mom who needs to bring her son to where medical advances are a necessity for his life not months from now but NOW. Does our government not see how special needs children are cared for in these countries??

I pray that tomorrow brings our file a caseworker. I pray if it does not happen that God gives me the right words to sway them into assigning a caseworker sooner rather than later. Facilitators are telling us they expect submissions to stop around June 12-15. For how long? We do not know. USCIS considers it a myth until the government in Joshua's country confirms it. However, it seems to be more of a reality coming from those that are doing our translations and our submissions. Submissions for us occur once weekly on Thursdays. Leaving us with approximately 6 submission days. For every delay in getting USCIS approval means a delay in submissions. We need our I171-H letter and have it sent to Joshua's country soon. Please continue to pray for us.. my mind is mush and my frustration is mounting. Pray for the other families that are working equally as hard to get their "golden" ticket. Each night I look at Joshua's picture and it truly kills me that we are so close but seem so far. I am hoping tomorrow brings us a renewed hope. I have not given up.. I will find the words tomorrow.. I know it.. I have to.