Waiting.. waiting..and Jake's evaluations

Been a few days since I last posted. I have little to report on the adoption aspect. We are still waiting on getting a USCIS caseworker. It is quite frustrating to watch others apply after only to get their approval ahead. There just does not seem to be any rhyme or reason to their processing these applications.

Today I took Jacob for his evaluations for preschool in the upcoming year. If you are a parent of a special needs child I am sure you can relate to these evaluations. It is a quite sobering experience. They do their evaluations based on typical children which I for one feel is unfair. I mean they have Down syndrome growth charts- why not evaluate children with Down syndrome with other children with Down syndrome. I do not need to know how far behind he is from typical children. That is a given! I understand their reasoning is they have to show or justify his need for special services but I do believe by now that everyone has a full understanding that my son will not always achieve the same things in the same time frame. He will achieve them only at his own pace so why judge against others' paces? As you can probably tell I am just not a fan of these evaluations. I am so proud of the strides he has made and continues to make and when they start throwing cognitive, fine motor, gross motor and speech ages at me I tend to tune them out. He is amazing and amazes me every day and I do need numbers to tell me how he is doing. I see it daily. He teaches me more than I could possibly teach him- why don't they give that a number?

It is so hard to imagine Jacob will be ready for preschool come September!! Today when we went to the school he was following behind me and I turned to watch him toddle into a classroom and yell heyyyy. Just proves to me that he is ready to be with other kids and away from me for a time. Problem is I am not ready! LOL maybe the evaluations should be for me! Is mom ready for this? I am not quite sure.