Our final piece of our dossier is not in Joshua's country and is scheduled to be delivered today. We ask for prayers that the team can translate it quickly and submit us tomorrow. If it is not tomorrow we will be definately submitted next Thursday.
We should in a couple of weeks get a travel date for us to meet Joshua, accept his referral and get our court date! I am so emotional right now. There are so many thoughts going through my head. This is the goal we have been working so hard for but now the panic sets in.
As you can see I added a bar to track our progress and our goal to the right. The money we have currently is the current donations I have gotten since January, plus the money we have already spent and the money Joshua himself has in his grant that was earned before our committing to him. We are still approximately 10,500 short of the funds needed for travel. With travel in about a month or month and half, I honestly do not know whether we are going to make our goal. In approximately 4 months my fundraising efforts have not been stellar. Jacob's prints only sold approximately $200 towards our goal. I am so grateful for those that donated and shared. We are 2100.00 closer than we were a few months ago but the reality and panic is setting in. I am trying to come up with ideas but quite frankly after our last giftaway I fear that even with a big ticket item, we won't even cover the costs of that item. Travel is looking to cost us more than anticipated. With the peak months coming up tickets are now costing much more and right now we just simply do not have it. My grant applications are still out there. We have gotten a couple responses that were a no go at this time but we are praying to hear from a couple more and praying that it will be positive news. We also got word that our first trip might be 4 weeks which means another week Dave will not be getting paid. Luckily he gets 3 weeks vacation and we are able to use that for the first 3 weeks there. However, with the extra week plus the second trip of 2 weeks, We will not be getting any paychecks during those weeks. That frightens me as well. I keep praying and am really trying to keep the faith that God will somehow take care of us during this time.. spiritually and financially.
Another worry is leaving Jacob for that long. I know the older kids will be fine but Jacob is going through the whole stage of crying when Dave and I are out of his sight. We hope that having the other children here it will be easier for my mom to watch him. As we get closer and closer to our trip the realization that we will be away from him for that long does not leave me with much comfort. The only comfort I get is that we are going to be with our son and making things happen so that both my babies are home where they belong.
I don't want anyone to read this and think we are having any regrets. That is far from the truth. We have no regrets. We want this and we love Joshua. Truth is if we could hop a plane right now and we could afford it, we would be there to bring him home in a heartbeat. I would hope that my feelings are natural. There are still so many unknowns to this adoption.. such as finances, travel to a foreign country and the kids left behind. Please please pray for us and pray for Joshua that provisions are met and the rest of the adoption goes smoothly so we can finally bring him home where he belongs.
Still no word on the new picture that might be out there of Joshua. I am so hoping to get one soon if this family does have one. I need a new Joshua fix!! And I have a feeling others feel the same way!
God bless you.
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