Another day here... check

Tomorrow is the day we get a shot at an x ray on Joshua!! I wish I could say that I am confident and not nervous but after 6 weeks of being here, I no longer have that confidence. Truth is Joshua is showing no real signs of sickness. He is alert, happy, noisy, appetite good.. and so on. In fact the only thing I am confident on is that if our appointment originally was tomorrow there would be no question of taking an x ray (they wouldn't) and they would send us on our way home. But it was not originally tomorrow. It was 10 days ago and 10 days ago Joshua had an x ray and it showed pneumonia. So now we rely on another x ray to show improvement to his right lung. Enough improvement to move him up a classification to allow travel home. Only God knows now if there is enough. We can only see how Joshua is doing on the outside. And it scares me to be honest but it is out of my control. I can't promise that when I walk into the clinic in the morning I won't feel like I am going to vomit. Both Dave and I are expecting that feeling. I might even feel that kick in the stomach and cry if disappointment comes. I wish I could tell you what the next sure plan is. I really have not much clue. I suppose it will involve talking with the team over here on our next option. It will involve moving to a cheaper apartment I imagine. And it will for sure mean that I cancel another ticket for Dave and Joshua and then I fly home alone Tuesday morning. I cling to the hope that 10 days is enough.. I know that if God wants it then it is more than enough. I pray that God wants it. Please also pray that God's plan is that we are pleasantly surprised and we all travel home together.

I posted this video on my facebook but wanted to add it here... this was Joshua at bedtime last night. Not a perfect video or audio but it kind of gives you an idea of how he is doing.. (oh yeah the 9th month clothes I have for him are actually getting a bit snug)