Update in the land of the unknown

On my post yesterday some posted that maybe this delay was a sign that Joshua is not my son. The only thing I am going to say on this matter is that Joshua Dawson Warner is my son. He was my son in my heart way before we received a new birth certificate listing me as his mother. I am not going to question why or why not this is happening. I am sure in due time it will be revealed to me in God's time. I do not ask that everyone agree with me 100% of the time or always see things my way.. I only ask that if you want to have an adult conversation back and forth please do not hide behind anonymous posts. I will not take such posts seriously if you must go about it in a cowardly fashion. Thanks.

So today's visit with the medical clinic went the same as always. She listened to his lungs and looked again at his x ray and said his right lung was 90% infiltrated with pneumonia. We were told by the embassy he could travel if they determine pneumonia but again not with TB. Appetite is awesome, no dehydration, no labored breathing. We asked about options for ruling out TB that would not be dangerous to him. Blood tests or even the skin test to see if that turned positive but she refused. She also refused a new x ray. Joshua has been on one antibiotic and protocol for TB is a combination of antibiotics and the one he is on is not listed. He has been taking for 5 days so we figured if there is an improvement in  his lung x ray it would prove pneumonia because TB would show no changes. We discussed sending his x ray to the CDC to get their opinion or guidelines of what we could do. She resisted that UNTIL in the middle of our talking the embassy called to speak to her. They requested her to send the x rays right away to the CDC. Normally they only ask for reports but this time they went above and asked for the actual x ray. She hung up the phone and said well there is no more discussion- I must send them it all. She then back tracked and stated how much improvement she saw from her exam today :/ Just 10 minutes earlier he was deathly ill with 90% infiltration.. oh yeah and his o2 sats were fine.

Before we left I asked her if it was pneumonia why won't anyone treat him? Her response is that in this country doctors treat Ukrainian children with pneumonia by automatically putting them in the hospital.. however Joshua is in limbo and now not considered Ukrainian so doctors do not want to treat him properly. (this is why I want to get back to our country where you are treated as a human and not nationality when it comes to being sick)

When I left there, I called the embassy who said they have done all they could do and we would have to wait for the CDC to let us know what they are thinking.  They are hoping for that tomorrow morning. I also made a call to the orphanage to explain the whole TB situation figuring if he had it then other kids would surely have it or signs of it. I was told by the doctor who is there daily making rounds for all the children that the kids are vaccinated for TB there and they pulled his records and in April he tested negative. So we are still in limbo and still praying.

I have to say I love the wise words of Jennifer Lane that maybe this is just a delay in allowing bonding time with Joshua. I do miss home and I do not think anyone would blame me on that front. If I could I would go home right now WITH Joshua. How nice it would be to be in a country where you know exactly where to go to get the medicine you need and pedialyte that you want to help your child. Where the medicine is already mixed up for you and you are not searching for someone to help you figure out what the package exactly says and how to mix it so you do not over medicate your precious child. Or a rocking chair to rock your sick child and provide comfort. How helpless it feels to have made a promise for a better life for your new son outside of orphanage walls and you stay in a 2 room apartment so as not to make him sicker. I will never claim to be perfect.. I am far from perfect but I am HIS mother and I want to be able to make it all better and right now it is out of my hands.