Many times during this process I have found myself wanting to bury myself under a mountain of blankets in my bedroom and not face the hurdles that seem to present themselves at the most inopportune times. There have been moments where I just want to close my eyes or run away. Doubts about whether I have the strength and resolve to keep walking on this path. Questioning what God's will is or his time frame. Today is a day for me to reflect on those feelings and put some perspective on them.
Today is Good Friday. The day Jesus was crucified on the cross so that he could pay for our sins and we could receive eternal salvation. Imagine Jesus knowing ahead of time that he would be betrayed by someone he trusted.. imagine Jesus knowing that it would be God's will for him to be nailed to a crucifix. How easy it seems he would have been able to run and hide away from such a fate. But instead of trying to avoid God's will and plan.. he prayed. He asked for God to somehow pass this cup from him but only if it was God's will and not his own. He knew that it was all in God's will and time frame. He trusted in God's will and love. He exhibited a willingness to give up his own life to carry out God's plan and to save others in doing so. He proved in an amazing way how love conquers hate.
I wish I could say that from this day forward, I won't worry or be impatient or question my journey. I can't say that I will forever be the model christian. I am a sinner- but you see I have my faith and I am a believer and because of the ultimate sacrifice by Jesus and following God's will I am saved. And because of my faith, I know that whatever happens it is God's will and he knows way better than me.
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